"Grow Up Already."

People say all the time 'you don't realise this is the best time of your life, and when it's gone it's gone forever.' What people don't realise is that I know this is the best time of my life and I never want it to end.

People say all the time 'graduation was one of the happiest and saddest days of my life.'
What people don't know is that all my life, even before I started school, I feared for the day I graduate school.

Honestly, I do want to grow up one day and have a husband and children. But I don't want it to happen too fast either. I'm afraid of a lot of things: I'm afraid of the respondsibility, the danger of not having my mum, driving a car, and just being alone. I'm most afraid of money though. I'm afraid of how I will pay for college: I can't work many jobs due to my arthritis. I'm afraid of never having enough money and needing my parents for a long time just as I have seen many people do into their late twenties.
Perhaps right now I'm a normal kid, seeing I'm a few years away from adulthood and it's normal that I'm nervous. Let's just say I'm making the most of my teen years: I don't act more mature than I need to at times. I read comics and I obsess over Harry Potter, Beatles and Disney: Just because I know that as an adult, these things just won't be accepted.

-Living the Dream


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